aw man aw man i just realisd i got loadsa stuffs to get for myself ahaha yayness xD
okay like i need a wallet mine's kinda tatterd, realy xD,
and my earphones,
a new phone,
a ring for myself <3,
more nail polish,
darn FBT shorts,
bags from project shop blood bros ! <3
headbands,
more flip flops,
colord contacts :D ,
shoes,
more jeans and skirts,
blah blah blahs.
yeah and the list just goes on and on and on haa guess i gotta be a realy good girl if i want santa to gimme so much pressies this xmas xD

no, dont you guys get it. haven everyone been telling me to be strong ? then why when i am now, you guys just dont believe me ? why should i put up a fckng brave and strong front in fronta you guys ? i dont see a fckng point okay and now suddenly you guys just keep saying im a distant girl and that i've changd. in the past when i was this girl whos always cryng and feelin sad and hating the world, haven you guys been always praying and hoping and wishing i'd be the happy girl just like in the past ? you guys dont trust me do you. yes. it was disappointing for me to be a sad girl in the past. but its a greater disappointment to have friends who dont trust you when yur being the real you. what am i supposed to be now. a depressd, sad, fckdup girl ? no. hell no. its wrong. isnt it ? why cant everyone just let me live a life that i want, for once ? to let me be the real me, for once ? tel me why-